Nowhere is where I belong.
Certainly not in this druxy union- This dilapidated foundation.
Lies and false hopes and secrets kept tight in a secure safe.
Ignorant promises that fade like the day does to night.
Ideas surrounding ideas with no action, leaving no goal to pursue.
Comfort isn’t surrendered, but worshipped.
Lost in a state of misery and regret, knowing I once found peace within myself- With who I am-Traded away for constant questioning; never comfortable as me.
Mocked and labeled with convincing falseness.
Stranded without even a shred of confidence that once carried me faithfully. It kept my back straight, shoulders squared, jaw set, head up- It walked me through the depths.
Even that which almost destroyed me was not enough to murder my confidence.
Now I’m lost.
Trying not to feel and laboring to conceal. New weakness replaces my strength. I feel selfish and am selfless; Should I be sorry it hurts?
Ah bitterness, You are a liar! Regret, you deceive!
Life isn’t about what isn’t but about what is. Currently what is, is nowhere.
And it is where I belong.